Sirius opened his eyes and moved away. He finally looked at Remus in the eyes again. The madness was further from the surface but there remained something empty inside of him. He may have escaped the war physically whole but a part of him had died when he found his best friends murdered. In so many ways, his own death was preferable.
"I had to. You would have tried to talk me out of it or told James. James never would have..."
The emotions that had ebbed returned. He really was gone. Sirius's best friend, the man he'd known since childhood. His partner in crime and so much more. The one he'd always turned to since they were 11.
"Oh God, Remus." He nearly cried. "Why couldn't it have been me?"
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Date: 2012-12-06 11:07 pm (UTC)"I had to. You would have tried to talk me out of it or told James. James never would have..."
The emotions that had ebbed returned. He really was gone. Sirius's best friend, the man he'd known since childhood. His partner in crime and so much more. The one he'd always turned to since they were 11.
"Oh God, Remus." He nearly cried. "Why couldn't it have been me?"